broken... shattered...

it was all alright, my failed math, just passed english and science, disappointing geography and chinese... it was all OKAY...

until i 亲手 broke my nice clock... stupid clumsy MEEEEE!

but it was STILL okay, when i ate lunch with them and when i go home...

until i want to go and play at my friend's house but couldn't.... 

until i was told i need to cook dinner for myself, again...

until i think of my BROKEN and SHATTERED clock again...

than all feels BAD, pretty BAD, quite BAD, very BADDDD

ARGH!!! CRAP!!!

not that i'm really VERY SAD about my fan-girl SS501 clock, though i still do feel SAD about it... it was nice, till IIIIII broke it!

BROKEN, SHATTERED, BROKEN, SHATTERED, BROKEN, SHATTERED ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~

watashi want to cry~ but watashi have not, bcos watashi am not used to crying over exams...

and watashi know it is not just bcos of exams, though that does contribute to it...

they are all piled up, stacked up, high high and all it takes is just a little trembling to tumble everything~

and it did tremble, a little, as i BROKE my lovely clock......

BROKEN, SHATTERED, BROKEN, SHATTERED, BROKEN, SHATTERED ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ 

watashi want somebody to be with her whom watashi can at least lean onto and fall asleep, or something...... nvm, lame silly thought~ not everyone is as lucky as Misaki that has Usui whenever needed~ sighed......

 

HAHAHAHA~ WHATEVER~

just remembered the day of last End-of-year exam, after Math, watashi just felt like 私奔ing with myself, ok i know it's a weird term here... like just want to take a long distance bus on and on and on by myself to nowhere, nowhere, nowhere~ ad think to myself and think and think~ and forget and forget and forget~ and be alone and alone and alone~ and be gone and gone and gone~ and ...... just 人间蒸发 for a while~ 

HAHAHAHAHA~ okay, i'm UNSTABLE~

just feeling BLUE~ SAD~ DEPRESSED~ and maybe a little SUICIDAL~ again......

i'm just saying stuff to myself that no one cares about or anything~ i know, i don't blame anyone~

walalala~ just a little crazy here~

don't worry, it's gonna be okay.

i hope it's gonna be ok.

i think it's gonna be ok.

i believe it's gonna be ok.

well, it HAS to be OKAY~ :)

[@TL: do NOT call the counsellor, ect. Thanks! if you do, i may hate you for life~ (: ]

thanks~ i don't expect anyone to read this actually~ haha~ just lazy to write manually in diary......

and this maybe used as evidence or something if i HAPPENED to commit SUICIDE someday~

LOL~ JK JK~

do NOT get me to a counsellor, call my aunt, parents or whatsoever, THANK U VERY MUCH~ :)

bye bye~

going to TRY to find some HAPPINESS and FUN in ANIME and MANGA~

ah ah~ it kinda ruined me, and my exams, but well...... at least i like it~ :)